It was so sad...


I can’t believe with my own eyes. He was lying on the bed in an unconscious state. He looked way much different from what he used to look. His face was bloated and his skin was red and bleeding.
I felt like crying but I held back my tears. Bf said was true. We feel sad because we know him. We talk and meet and become friends. And that was when our friendship blooms.


Let’s pray hard for him to get well and hope the one above protects him and give him another chance to live even though he won’t be the same like he used to. Insyallah. Amin.


Let’s not be sad anymore.


I was just thinking. I was thinking about losing someone who I love the most. I was thinking how I’m going to survive without my loved ones. I was thinking how I’m going to cope with life if this happen to my loved ones. I was thinking whether I can still be myself if I’m going to lose my loved ones. I was thinking and thinking and thinking.


For the last 3 years, Bf and I had a conversation which I still remember clearly till now. And to my surprise, bf also remembers it. We were sitting at basketball court at west coast after school and he asked me whether I still want him if he’s disable or handicap. My answer would definitely yes. Why should I leave someone who I love and someone who I went through so much with? Why should I leave him just because he’s disable or handicap?


And I asked him too. His answer was the same as me. We lived for each other and we went through so much together. Even though we suffered so much for the past years, we still managed to hold on and still be with each other. And true as it was, we met with an accident. Nothing bad happened to him but I lost something which I think it’s important for girls to look pretty. A scar was left on my face. Yes. It is still there. And etc. In fact, my bf would still say,


Him: u look pretty today.
Me: Really? Only today?
Him: Yes.
Me: Oh okay. *giggles*


How can I be happy even if he said that I look pretty only today? Actually, He said that whenever we met. So that doesn’t mean only today right?


Ok enough about it. So mushy right? I know.


1 more hours will be my lunch time and has yet to decide on what to eat. I feel like having noodles but I don’t know where to buy. Urgh! Whatever.


Since Bf is riding, I told myself that I have to prepare for everything. I have to accept anything that will happen.
I always remind him to ride carefully and pray before going off. I will always pray for your safety BF.