I should have visited him. I should have asked for forgiveness.



Two words.
Too Late.




My grandfather has passed away on last Saturday. I felt so remorseful and somehow, I regretted.
I’m not too close with my grandfather but I’ve done a lot of mistakes towards him. It made me cried and I’ve always think of him before I sleep. It’s not very me to think of the dead but it was my first time losing someone who lived with me when I was still so young.



I showed people that I was strong but in fact, I was weak. I want to tell all the people that I regretted for what I’ve done to him. I know that I shouldn’t have said this when he has already gone. But I really want to seek his forgiveness. I don’t have to blame anyone but only to myself. Now, I know how it feels when u lose someone not that u love, but the one you have done a lot of mistakes to and also too late to seek his/her forgiveness.



“setiap manusia harus melalui kematian”




This sentence made me realized that no matter how long u live in this world, u still have to go. Doesn’t matter whether you are still young or old, u still have to leave your loved ones. I don’t know how long I’m going to live in this world. But I hope to apologize to my loved ones before I go.




“Life is short, we should go and enjoy.”



Only stupid people said this. I’ve heard many people said this. The dumbest people of all.
I’m sorry if I offended any of you who said this. But I hate people who said this.
It is because u has to treasure your life in a good way while you’re still alive. Why go and enjoy and make a lot of sins to yourself and suffer in hell?



I’m referring to myself too honestly. I tried to stop everything and I want to make big changes to myself. I want to start praying and all those religious stuffs I’ve done before. I hope to be guide to a correct path. Insyallah.



Dear grandfather,



Although u will not be hearing this, but I still want to seek your forgiveness. The moment that I have to give my last goodbye kiss to you, I was saying “sorry” in my heart. And I really mean it. I’m sorry for not visiting when you were hospitalized and I’m sorry for not seeing you for the last time. When you were still breathing, I shouted at you, ignored you and rude to you. I regretted so much.
I was to blame. I was wronged. Please forgive me.



How I wish I could have said this before you go.