Im so fcuking sad right now.
Its my 3 years 10 months anni today. But im sad now. RIGHT now.
He talked to me on the phone ytd and i was fcuking happy dat he finally managed to call and talk to me fer long hours.

And he asked me, " Do u feel happy dat i call u?". And i was like, "Hell yea, its been a fcuking long time since the last time we talked on the phone."
It's true.
And he was hell sweet to me ytd. Its not wrong anyway. Cause i love the feeling.
He told me dat he was listening to this song. Dealova by Dewa. Its an indonesian song. He told me dat song reminds him of ME.
Dat was y he called me.

So when we were talking on the phone happily. He said dat the song was for me. When i listened to the lyrics, i was fcuking touched.
I mean, who dont?
I love the feeling. I love being loved.
Honestly, fer the past few days, i lost the feelings of being loved. I was wondering, maybe we were together fer too long.
Or maybe, we dun love each other like we used to.

So, i confide my feelings to my bestie. I told her dat i wanted to give up. I cudnt stand this anymore cause i dun see dat he love me at all.
Cum on. For 3 years plus, we shud be getting more closer to each other instead of drifting apart.
I tried to consider aload of times. BUT im scared i wud regret later.
Tell me, wad m i suppose to do?
Breakup? Cry? Ignore? Wait? or wad?
Who wants to end a long term rship? Haiz..
Ok2. Lets stop talking abt this.

Aniwaes, went to west coast to eat just now. with my family and cousins. Cudnt get thrue him fer the whole day as he was sleeping. Till now? The whole day. But he did managed to call me and apologise as he was damn fcuking tired.
Nah. I dun noe wad to do. So, Patience. Patience. Patience.
Maybe he dun care at all about our anni todae. Itsa fcuking bad feelings.

Fcuk. Gonna stop this entry. *sigh*