I'm feeling very down right now. There's a lot of things i've been keeping to myself. Instead of confiding to sumone close, i cry myself inside the toilet.
I know, dats not the way. But i have no one to confide in. I always confide my probs to dearie or to my bestie. But since my dearie's away fer a holiday and bestie has her own probs, i shall not disturb dem.

I think im a burden to people. especially to my family. Seriously, i wanna apologise to my mother. I made her angry fer the past few days and now, she ignored me. I cant seems to find a way to talk to her. But sumhow, i hope things will becum better and she'll forgive me. I felt very bad, and i kept on crying bfore i sleep. I think, i've done sumthing so wrong dat i feel guilty.And the feelings is still dere. Hidden in my heart.

I told my bestie, " I feel dat i've grown up, and i can make my own decisions. The only bad thing about me is dat, im stubborn but i respect my mother. She's becuming more and more understanding and she treated me as adult. And its better dat way. But sumtimes, i dun understand y must she listen to an outsider instead to his daughter? Its my fault. But its so unfair to me dat i decided to make my own decision. Still, i love her like i used to. It took me so long to gain her trust. Dats y i never take her fer granted like i did before."

As i'm becuming older, i becum emotional. I dont know. But whenever i feel down, i wud cry. And it makes me fcuking better. I wanna try goin to the beach and talk to the sea. People say dat it will make our problems fade away. I guess its true. Rather den talking to the toilet bowl. Hehehe.. Jokking =)

I miss my boyfren. I really miss him. He did sumthing sweet to me fer the past few days. And i realised dat his love fer me is true. He kiss and hug me when im sad. I mean, dats a normal thing fer a couple to do. But whenever he do dat, the feelings is so different. Before he left, i told him to stay with me. I still nid his hugs and kisses cause it will make me happier. But still, he nids to leave.

I'm so lonely now. I can't expect my bestie to keep accompany me fer 24 hours. I always troubled her and i feel so bad. Help me. I hate this feelings. Sumtimes, i dont expect sumthing in return. But i lost my frens and the last one standing is my bestie. We've made a promise, " By 21 years old, we buy a house and live together. =)" Well, i dont knoe whether its possible. But sumhow, i think its very cute of her to think like dat. I realli hope our frenship last till the end of our life. And we gonna make this promise cum true. I love u bestie.
I think dats about it. I was crying when i type this. hehs.