Tell me. How am i gonna go thrue this? Fcuk. The most terrifying moment gonna cum real soon. REAL soon.

I don't know wad shud i do or how shud i run away from it. I cant sit dere and pretend to be calm cause i know and i can feel dat sumthing bad gonna happen.. Hmm... Now, the only thing i can do is to work. I can run away from it by goin to work. But the fcuking thing is dat,, I dont have a fcuking job!! Even if i have one.. it gonna start mostly like two days after im shortlisted. Arghhh!!

Im trying to stay calm but i dont think dat things wud be as easy es i pray everyday. I just want a happy life. Even i do sumthing bad, it between me and god. And i dont want anyone else to interfere. I dont nid anyone to intrude my personal things and fer me dats not the way to solve my problems. Fcuk sia. I really left with no other choices. I tried to think and think until i cant think anymore. Hahaha.. Wtf! Still, dere's no solution laa.. Urgh!


I think im gonna stop here. By hook or by crook, i wont let anything happen on the day itself. Im so tired to think about this fcuking problems cause it seems dat it leads me to depression. Oh cum on! =(